Out of the Box 5

My Lady Aphrodite,

After the revelation I had by the poolside, staying away from Anando would have been the best thing to do. I was neither ready nor willing to be in a serious relationship; all I had ever wanted was sex. I had found that with Anando—a bit on the kinkier side than I had expected—and I wanted nothing more. I didn’t want to want anything more, and didn’t want to risk my heart. You know, my Lady, how wrong things went the last time I trusted a man with it.

If I had thought Anando would try to deepen our relationship, I would never have set foot at On The Edge again. After his reaction at my near confession, however, I was convinced that he didn’t want emotional strings any more than I did.

I thought about it for three long weeks, prepared what I would tell him, and couldn’t help feeling like I had been in the same place before. Back then, I had tried to set physical limits by demanding that he not bite me; those boundaries hadn’t lasted more than a couple of hours. Now, I wanted to set emotional ones. I hoped it would work better.